pourquoi

I think I am stupid
I think I am
I think je suis

There was this beautiful girl at the mall.
She had red hair and was perfect.
We talked a lot about cable, and movies.
And me, after my 2nd coffee, my heart was beating fast.
I couldn't think, I was focused in my game.
Not that game, but a game I created for myself.
An intelligence one, that I sometimes lose myself in.
But she was being forward, and I was sitting dumb
She kept saying movies and I didn't know what she meant

So after 20 minutes I left, not realizing the date possibility.
silly me.
But then I went into darkness when I left the mall, it happened.
I went backwards and spun out of my zone.
The caffeine still pumping through my veins.
I took a chance to see something I thought was new
But it was the same old thing I saw before.
And I sat down
so dumb

Before all this, I saw Tammy and gave her a painting I purchased at the art crawl.
She hammered away into watches and I was in the moment to be.
Until I left the mall.

Frustration and images, thoughts forgotten. backwards.
I saw one of my past lives, that I thought I would never see again.
But I learned the meaning of the way things are and now the memories of that moment fade as I lay in my Lazeretto. It's okay now since I am letting you know.

You are my sanity, you are my saint. and the message I want to get across is just be careful and play the game safe.

So, if you want to get me a present for my 144th day of the year birthday day, find the marketing host of Cogeco and I will pay you in Toblerones.

Gg