no.thing.ness

I think I've found nirvana
I am nothingness
All I have is my imprint where i stand
i am a shadow of my former self
i am nothingness
all my dreams are dead or dying
how can i keep them from staying alive
how can i feel again
smile again
love again
I am nothingness
too fat for the role
to ugly to love
a boy only a mother could love
i sit back and drink my water
it replenishes my body
it is additional to my nothingness
there are no ways of having my skills come back
it's over now, baby blue
or should i sit back and wait
i will get it if i wait
i promise you
i will run twice a day
go swimming at night and stretch
i am nothingness
watch me go